|My sister and I -I was 13|
I can`t begin to explain how many goals I have set for myself that just do not come to fruition, because I sabotage myself. Either by allowing the events from the past define me or even words spoken to me create who I am today. Michael Jordan`s coach told him he was no good at sports. Madonna was told she couldn`t dance. Kids from the ghetto do not make it big. Have you ever heard of Jay-Z?
When I was 12, an English teacher in Puerto Rico had her daughter visit our class. The daughter started pointing to randoms kids and asking, "Tell me about him. Tell me about her." In English. Mind you I didn`t start speaking English until the following year, so she thought the class didn`t understand what their presumed private conversation was. I understood everything.
She points at me and asks "What about her? She looks smart." To what my teacher responded "She`s a clown. She will never amount to anything." Verbatim. I remember how my heart sank. How I could hear my heart beat in my ears and the hurt it created. I just didn`t understand why she would say that.
I could let her words define me. I do have this need to make people happy and laugh. Yet, I am not a clown. Having heard those words, made me try harder. At everything. My competitive edge is sometimes my best character flaw. Notice the oxymoron. I like it and I would not trade it for anything, though it annoys some.
You see, I could make you laugh. Although, that is not my purpose. If only my teacher had only looked beyond the girl who entertained the whole class, and disrupted hers. Nonetheless, had she not said those words, would I try any harder?? Thank you for saying that teacher. Wherever you are.
Run DMC R&R Aceptance speech by yardie4lifever2